I stood in front of the mirror naked today after my shower, just looking at myself, and telling myself that what I see isn’t what I really look like. I’ve started doing this as an exercise to hopefully help me work on my body dismorphic issues. Been doing this for about a month now; haven’t posted about it until now because I wasn’t sure if it was going to work.
But it worked tonight. Instead of seeing someone disgusting and fat, I think I might have seen a little bit of what I really look like. It was a strange and amazing feeling, like when I got glasses for the first time and could see things sharply for the first time in years.
Also, I dare say, I look pretty good. Which is something I haven’t said about myself in a really long time. So, there’s hope for me yet.