My life is in shambles right now. I found out that my fiance is cheating on me (again) — I don’t want to go into details or really discuss that, though; I do have a plan in place — and I’m having a really hard time dealing with that. Because of that, all I want to do is eat and eat and eat and eat and sleep all the time. I’m so miserable and stressed out and triggered by this. It’s hard to keep the “he wouldn’t be doing this if I was skinnier” thoughts away. It’s hard to not obsess about my weight. It’s hard to even get up.
As such, I haven’t been working out. I’ve been afraid that I’d probably fall into very unhealthy habits with it right now. I’m going to give it a try this afternoon and see what happens but I’ll have to really be on top of it and paying attention to my mental state so I don’t make myself sick.
I hate everything right now.