DIY Hamburger Helper

This looks really delicious. I’ll have to try it. And I need to make a real post here but I’ve been doing mostly okay on the eating disorder front so I’m not sure what to talk about.

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I was going to make this, but it’s too hot in the house to use the oven. instead, I rummaged through the cabinets and came up with my own version of cheeseburger macaroni.

You’ll need:
* 2lbs uncooked pasta
* 1lb ground meat
* 14.5oz can diced tomatoes
* seasonings
* onion
* bell pepper
* 16oz jar cheese sauce

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The best part is that you can use whatever veggies and seasonings you want. I only used about a forth of a cup of onions and half of a bell pepper but you can use more, less, or something completely different! The seasonings I chose were garlic powder, Italian seasoning, and thyme.

1. Chop veggies. Put them in a skillet with the ground beef. Sprinkle the seasonings over the mixture, add a little water so that the meat doesn’t stick, and brown the meat.

2. While that’s coming, make…

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End of the Hiatus?

So, I took a long, unexpected hiatus from this blog and WordPress in general. I just didn’t have the spoons to maintain this blog with everything that was going on in my life. A short catchup is that my partner, birds, and I have been struggling with homelessness in a terrifying way since August and also with hunger due to circumstances. My partner finally has a good job but the payroll company his work uses messed up his check and it’s late. We finally have a more stable place to live but we racked up a lot of debt trying to stay off the streets the last few months so it will be a while before we claw our way out, yet.

I’m not sure what to do with this blog anymore. Not sure how many people still will read after the hiatus and also not sure what content to post. I’ll have to consider things.

 

Anyway, here’s a link to an article with pictures of famous people untouched and also photoshopped. The untouched photos come from tabloids so I don’t recommend clicking the source links.

http://www.strongmindbraveheart.com/10-famous-bodies-without-photoshop/

New Study Links Eating Disorders To Childlessness and Fertility Problems

A new study suggests that eating disorders may cause fertility problems. The study looked at 15 years of data from 11,000 people, which is a decent sample size, and the findings are interesting. Personally, this doesn’t really affect me because I have chosen not to have children but the article is worth a read and consideration.

The article discusses eating disorders, infertility, abortion, and pregnancy loss. Read at your discretion! Here is the link.

What do you think about the findings? Personally, I think the findings are definitely worth further research and it gives me some things to think on.

Personal Update: Eating Disorder Feelings. Plus News Article

Content Warning: This post contains detailed discussion of eating disorders, disordered eating patterns, and dysmorphic body image.

 

Our living situation remains pretty much the same. B is frantically looking for work. We’re awaiting word on SNAP and his unemployment payments but it’s likely the shutdown will further delay these things. We’re trying to make it on ~$50/wk and it’s brutal. Some of my friends have helped out by sending/giving us money for food/gas but it’s been difficult to find a way to eat enough, especially since the food bank we usually go to often only has random things like bread and veggies; nothing to really make meals with. We’ve started to go to the Salvation Army food bank, which we haven’t gone to before due to their policies on LGBT+ and non-Christian people, but they give out food boxes to the needy that you can actually build meals with.

Dealing with my eating disorder during this time continues to be difficult at best. I’ve lost weight. I can tell because my clothes are looser on my body, not because I’ve weighed myself. Part of me is thrilled beyond words because I hate how my body looks at the weight I’m at but then I try to remind myself that I hated how I looked and thought I was “fat” when my ribs were visible. I’m unsure if I’m really as heavy as I see myself in the mirror or if my ED is lying to me. Probably the latter.

We’ve had more access to food the last week or so but we’ve not been eating more as a result. I don’t want to yo-yo between this starvation mode and gorging myself on food to the point I feel sick and B just hasn’t noticed when he’s hungry lately so neither of us realize it’s been more than seven hours (or longer) between meals. It doesn’t help that B recently confided in me that he has disordered eating thoughts and has for years. I’ve suspected for a long time but I haven’t pestered him about it. We’re quite the pair.

The stress we’re under is causing my other health issues, such as my fibromyalgia and eczema, to super flare, too. Something has to change soon.

 

Now that I’ve updated on personal things, onto the news video I found that infuriated me: An 11-year-old girl in Florida was sent home with a letter from her school recently. That letter stated that she was “on a trend” to be overweight according to the BMI and her health is at risk. This girl is incredibly physically active and doesn’t look overweight at all. Her mother’s fighting it and talking to the media. The media, in turn, is talking to doctors who buy into the BMI hogwash, despite all the evidence that it’s bunk and is not a good indicator of health.

Here‘s the link. Watch with caution due to discussion of weight, BMI, and doctors harping on how being skinny is the best way to be healthy.

Personal Update Plus Interesting Link

Well, we have a roof over our heads but we had to move almost a hour away from my fiance’s work. Our new housemates are controlling micromanagers and have made living with them pretty miserable. I’m trying to keep my head up but it’s not going well. I feel pretty hopeless. I’d go into more detail but thinking about it makes me feel worse.

On a totally different topic:

A study was done recently (on only 66 people but still) that shows a possible link between female-bodied children who have anorexia and autism. Basically, they found that most of the subjects they studied (between the ages of 12 and 18) scored on tests similarly to people with autism. I find this interesting because I definitely show some signs of mild autism myself and the research seems beneficial. Anyway, here’s the link. Non-hyperlinked version here (do I need to keep providing these? Let me know in the comments): http://www.reuters.com/article/2013/08/05/us-autism-anorexia-idUSBRE97412J20130805

AMA’s Decision To Classify Being Obese As A Disease + Article Critical Of The Decision

This post contains discussion of weight-shaming, weight, and body types. Use your discretion while reading.

So, I don’t know if you all saw, but last week the American Medical Association announced it’s going to classify being obese as an official disease, like diabetes or lupus. Many more eloquent people have written about why that’s a bunch of hooey (and I will be linking to an article about that in a moment) but I wanted to talk about this issue and why it’s bad for people who have eating disorders or disordered eating tendencies. According to anda.org, up to 24 MILLION people in the US have an eating disorder and eating disorders have the highest rates of mortality of any mental illness.

As it is, there’s A LOT of pressure to be skinny. It’s all around us from the media, fashion industry, family, friends, an entire industry dedicated to it… And those attitudes definitely contribute to our society’s eating disorder rates. Now add a major medical group telling a third of the population they suddenly have a disease and there’s even MORE pressure to be under that arbitrary pound limit.  As someone with an eating disorder (in recovery) and who’s at the heaviest weight of my life, I find the AMA’s decision terrifying, sickening, negligent, and dangerous.

Now onto the article that I read that reminded me to post about this. I’m just going to directly link to it. It talks about a lot of the stuff I just talked about but with related links and more research. I want to put an additional caution for the article because it discusses weight loss surgery and other weight loss hooey.  Fat People: #IAmNotADisease and here’s the non hyper-linked version:

http://www.cnn.com/2013/06/25/opinion/wann-obesity-disease/index.html?eref=mrss_igoogle_cnn

23 Animated Gifs of Celebrities Before and After Retouching

The article says 24 but the last one is a joke. The “after” images could be triggering so use your own discretion about if you can handle looking at “perfect” airbrushed bodies, also, this post discusses body image and its relation to the fashion industry so use caution.

My friend on Facebook shared this article and I knew I had to share. It shows pictures of celebrities before and after retouching. Some of these “after” images are so different from the “before” images that the people in them don’t look like the same persons and it would be comical if it wasn’t so frightening. It’s frightening because of the completely unrealistic standards of “beauty” it establishes — if these people society tells us are beautiful can’t obtain that standard then how can we?

Anyway, here is the article. Non-hyperlinked version:

http://fstoppers.com/24-animated-gifs-of-celebrities-before-and-after-retouching

(Also, this is apparently my 140th post.)