B&J’s Hearty Vegetable-Beef Soup

Long time, no post, I know. But I haven’t known what to do with this blog for over a year because my living situation has greatly improved and my mental health has improved with it. I don’t feel the need to talk about my eating disorder at length anymore but some readers expressed an interest in recipes. So, with that in mind, have one that my spouse and I came up with together.

 

B&J's Vegetable Beef Soup

B&J’s Vegetable Beef Soup

 

Recipe:

B&J’s Hearty Vegetable-Beef Soup

Ingredients:

1.5lbs of beef cut into ½” cubes – dealer’s choice but we usually use rump roast or a London broil

5 cans (10 cups) of no salt added beef broth

12oz frozen sliced carrots

1 (one) 15oz can sliced new potatoes

1 (one) 15oz can rosemary, and oregano diced tomatoes

1 (one) 15oz can basil, rosemary, and oregano diced tomatoes

1 (one) 15oz can roasted garlic diced tomatoes

1 (one) 15oz can no salt added diced tomatoes

1 (one) 15oz can no salt added corn

1 (one) 15oz can no salt added green beans

1 (one) 15oz can seasoned black beans

1 (one) 12oz box of noodles – we usually use garden rotini

4 tablespoons garlic powder (3 to be used during browning of meat, 1 to put in the soup broth)

1.5 teaspoons dried oregano (optional)

½ teaspoon dried sage (optional)

½ teaspoon chili powder (optional)

Method:

Brown the meat in large stock pot with 3 tablespoons garlic powder and ½ teaspoon chili powder

While the meat is browning drain the cans of: corn, green beans, potatoes, and no salt added tomatoes

Once the meat is brown, add the beef broth, drained cans, cans of undrained tomatoes, undrained black beans, and spices. Bring to a boil then simmer for 40 minutes.

After 40 minutes, add the frozen carrots to soup cook noodles according to box directions.

Serve by putting some of the cooked noodles in bowls and ladle the soup over the top. Store noodles and soup separately.

Makes A LOT of soup and noodles.

Soup in storage, noodles are in the cottage cheese container.

Soup in storage, noodles are in the cottage cheese container.

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Personal Update: Eating Disorder Feelings. Plus News Article

Content Warning: This post contains detailed discussion of eating disorders, disordered eating patterns, and dysmorphic body image.

 

Our living situation remains pretty much the same. B is frantically looking for work. We’re awaiting word on SNAP and his unemployment payments but it’s likely the shutdown will further delay these things. We’re trying to make it on ~$50/wk and it’s brutal. Some of my friends have helped out by sending/giving us money for food/gas but it’s been difficult to find a way to eat enough, especially since the food bank we usually go to often only has random things like bread and veggies; nothing to really make meals with. We’ve started to go to the Salvation Army food bank, which we haven’t gone to before due to their policies on LGBT+ and non-Christian people, but they give out food boxes to the needy that you can actually build meals with.

Dealing with my eating disorder during this time continues to be difficult at best. I’ve lost weight. I can tell because my clothes are looser on my body, not because I’ve weighed myself. Part of me is thrilled beyond words because I hate how my body looks at the weight I’m at but then I try to remind myself that I hated how I looked and thought I was “fat” when my ribs were visible. I’m unsure if I’m really as heavy as I see myself in the mirror or if my ED is lying to me. Probably the latter.

We’ve had more access to food the last week or so but we’ve not been eating more as a result. I don’t want to yo-yo between this starvation mode and gorging myself on food to the point I feel sick and B just hasn’t noticed when he’s hungry lately so neither of us realize it’s been more than seven hours (or longer) between meals. It doesn’t help that B recently confided in me that he has disordered eating thoughts and has for years. I’ve suspected for a long time but I haven’t pestered him about it. We’re quite the pair.

The stress we’re under is causing my other health issues, such as my fibromyalgia and eczema, to super flare, too. Something has to change soon.

 

Now that I’ve updated on personal things, onto the news video I found that infuriated me: An 11-year-old girl in Florida was sent home with a letter from her school recently. That letter stated that she was “on a trend” to be overweight according to the BMI and her health is at risk. This girl is incredibly physically active and doesn’t look overweight at all. Her mother’s fighting it and talking to the media. The media, in turn, is talking to doctors who buy into the BMI hogwash, despite all the evidence that it’s bunk and is not a good indicator of health.

Here‘s the link. Watch with caution due to discussion of weight, BMI, and doctors harping on how being skinny is the best way to be healthy.

23 Animated Gifs of Celebrities Before and After Retouching

The article says 24 but the last one is a joke. The “after” images could be triggering so use your own discretion about if you can handle looking at “perfect” airbrushed bodies, also, this post discusses body image and its relation to the fashion industry so use caution.

My friend on Facebook shared this article and I knew I had to share. It shows pictures of celebrities before and after retouching. Some of these “after” images are so different from the “before” images that the people in them don’t look like the same persons and it would be comical if it wasn’t so frightening. It’s frightening because of the completely unrealistic standards of “beauty” it establishes — if these people society tells us are beautiful can’t obtain that standard then how can we?

Anyway, here is the article. Non-hyperlinked version:

http://fstoppers.com/24-animated-gifs-of-celebrities-before-and-after-retouching

(Also, this is apparently my 140th post.)

More Internet Body Rudeness

I really need to just flat-out refuse to show people I talk to on IM programs photographs. But I never learn…

I was talking to a guy I’d been talking to for about a week or so and I decided he wasn’t creepy so I decided to share this photo with him:


It was going fine until he told me that I’d look nicer if I lost weight. I blew up at him, lectured him and told him how NOT OKAY. He apologized and then he made a negative body comment about Russian women, said they’re all “soooooo fat.” At that point I just blocked him.

What is it with people thinking that sharing a photo means an invitation to scrutinize and ridicule the body that someone else lives in? Now I feel all eating disorder triggered. I’m fighting it but it’s so hard.

The first video in the post was very striking to me because I see myself with a body like the teacher (person on the left) but my fiance tells me that my body is more like the person on the right. I recognized myself being body dysmorphic and gave myself a pat on the back (after confirming with my fiance about the body types).

New Minnie Mouse is Creepy-Skinny

So, apparently Forever 21 and Disney are partnering to make a new line of clothing and stuff and they’ve given Minnie Mouse a horrific makeover.  They claim this new look is stylish, glamorous, and modern but I just see her new body and think she’s got a serious eating disorder problem.

 

I obviously have issues with the design. I think it promotes unrealistic (to the extreme!) body types. Also, they’ve turned Minnie into this thing that doesn’t even vaguely resemble a mouse anymore.

Anyway, this person has a better article about it than I do:

http://www.thedisneychick.com/2010/07/meet-new-minnie-mouse-then-back-away.html

Pictures–Pre and Post Recovery

So, I promised you guys pictures of me pre and post recovery, so here we go.

The first picture is of me, my sister, and our friend. It was taken during the summer of 2005 and anorexia was running my life. It should be noted that I had gained between 5 and 10 pounds when this picture was taken and I weighed about 110lbs.

The second picture was taken earlier tonight and I consider myself to be in recovery. I weigh about 144lbs. I feel that I look fatter than I actually do so it was weird seeing this picture and not seeing myself in a dysmorphic way. I’m not going to think or talk about how that makes me feel much, it’s just strange.

So, yeah, there you go.

Me, my sister, and our friend summer '05. I'm on the right.

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